name is FAAIDHA
was brought to the world on 26may. xinmin-ian, compassvale-ian
i am easy to get along with.
but if you do annoy me,
i'll be cold towards you like how you did me.
i hope to be able to..
what's on my wish list?
i want and need to have a new pencil box
because i seem to not fit anything inside my current pencil box
i want and need to have a new bag pack
because i have spoiled my current one i want and need to have a new sports shoebecause my current one is spoiled
i want and need to have a guitar
because i just want and need one
i want and need shelves of books
because i just found out that i LOVE reading
i guess it's short enough.
i am not good in putting my words nicely.
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at that time when you mentioned that i was your ..., i was ... idk. how should i feel? i sensed something, in me. regarding you. should i even feel that way?.. i shouldn't right? i know. but, it's just there. but i am not entertaining. i know, i'll just hurt myself in the end, wouldn't i? i also know, i dont stand a chance even if i were to ... and when you pulled me, i felt something. but i can't figure out what it was. maybe i am just thinking too much. there's just so many things in my head. but i admit, i do. but, what can i do? nothing. nothing much. but all i could do is to stare in your eyes, hoping that you could understand. but that, i know, wouldn't work.
idk if i should be mad over it, or should i be excited over that fact? i know i talked crap, and it annoys you, but why wouldn't you just tell me straight? i thought you were my best biatch, and i thought you enjoyed being around me and the others. maybe i was wrong. i always do this right?.. i know. i screw things up, always. i realised that since long. i tried changing, but ... it's always still the old me. i am sorry for being me. indirectly, i understand, i have hurt you with my words. but, to let you know, that's who i am. i have like, so many things up my head, but sometimes, it gets me thinking about this. i won't bore you with any more, but i am just sorry, for just being me.
went to compass point to meet with the rest before heading to IKEA to buy the stuffs for the BIG day. headed to IKEA with cassandra, weiliang, shaowen, frederick, wanying, serena li and also haikal. some ate at the cafeteria, whereas me, frederick, wanying and weiliang ate at the hotdog cafeteria. we had some quality time together, maybe not. we were just talking non-stop. though at some parts, i dont understand since they are talking in chinese, i just had to shut up. after that, went up to meet the rest, then started looking for the stuffs. but to no avail. the salesman said that the horse no more already. so, then we headed to giant to buy toy guns and my ping pong balls. bought le, then me, frederick, shaowen, wanying, weiliang went back compass point to actually discuss about stuffs. so, went to pizza hut to eat. thought of discussing there, but someone didn't know about it. so, we didn't. after eating, we went to our normal meeting point and had the discussion, while *ahem ahem* went to play arcade. BUT, they were instead arguing about dont know what. got me and wanying *dot dot dot*. then we tried to cheer frederick up, because he was *dot dot dot*. whereas shaowen, have long gone to popular, he said. dont know what they were bickering about though. but got some words known [looks like my knowledge in chinese really serves as a good purpose]. then i got like, moody[idk why] and decided to just shut myself from the rest. suddenly remembered my mum need a handphone cover. went off without the rest, but with weiliang running after me. i told him everything, including the part where i wasn't angry with them. i felt bad that when they called, i didn't answer. sorry, but i just wanted to ... sorry. i dont have a reason to be angry at you guys. you guys are great friends. your willingness to be friends with me, is the most precious thing to me. *smile*
thanks shaowen. i felt great after talking. you're a great listener. *smile* thanks.
